~Highlights From 2017~ 2018 is Almost Here!

2018 is almost here! It’s hard to believe that 2017 is about to come to a close. Reflecting back over the year… It was a good one πŸ™‚ So much happened. It started off super rough. I was so done mentally, done with being lonely and feeling sorry for myself. The resolution I made for 2017 was to have a better year than 2016. But then it all turned around and ended up as a year that will be very special for a long time ^_^

Here’s some of the my highlights of 2017 πŸ™‚

  • My trip to Missouri. Even though it was really difficult (There was a lot I was dealing with.), it was good to goΒ  spend time with some of my siblings and nieces and nephews. It all was very bittersweet.
  • Camp. Where I found healing πŸ™‚ Everyone that I met there, everything I did… All the fun I had πŸ™‚
  • Co-Op. I’m not sure that I could have survived another year without it ^_^ The people there especially. Everyone there accepted me as one of them without a moment’s hesitation. It didn’t take me long at all before it became a normal part of my life πŸ™‚
  • One family that I and my family has gotten close to in the Co-Op πŸ™‚ They’re the sweetest family. We’re really similar, but different at the same time. They’ve been such a blessing.
  • Theater. That’s one of the classes I’m taking at Co-Op. I wasn’t sure about it the first time I went, but it definitely went up from there πŸ™‚ One of the first classes I volunteered to help write the script. I’m so glad I did ^_^ I had no idea I would enjoy it so much.
  • Thanksgiving. I’ve never really enjoyed Thanksgiving that much, but this year was different πŸ™‚ I did a lot of the baking and helping with preparation,which I really enjoyed. And then we had the family mentioned above over for dinner. We ate good food, talked, played games afterward… It wasn’t anything fancy or spectacular; everything was very low key. It was one of, and quite possibly the best, Thanksgivings I’ve ever had πŸ™‚
  • Going to see Star Wars: The Last Jedi. Aaaaaaaaahh!! I saw it about two weeks ago, so I’m still fan girling about it ^_^ My brother and I dressed up as jedi. We went with people from our church. It was so much fun XD

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Do Things Ever Really Get Better?

We’ve all heard people say it. You’re going through a hard time and all people can tell you is: “Just wait, things will get better!” But do we really believe them? Do things ever really get better?
Keep reading, maybe I can help πŸ™‚
Β June 2016 through June 2017.
That sentence pretty much sends a shudder through me.
Most people who know me know that the last year has been very hard for me. Some people more than others. There were times when I would just want to give up, but I kept praying that God would somehow make things better for me and help me understand what was going on, and help me get through.
He answered my prayers completely πŸ™‚ It didn’t happen instantly. I suffered for a long time. Then I found a place that helped. A place that God knew I needed πŸ™‚ Camp. It helped me refocus and find my freedom again. I found friends, and purpose in life again, I felt free again. I was no longer burdened down with all my emotions and sadness. I started not just living from day to day, but actually smiling when I woke up in the mornings, like I used to.
And after that the blessings kept continuing…. We found a Co-Op/homeschool group, which was exactly what we had been looking for for quite awhile. We’ve gotten together with them a few times, I’ve met some people that I think may quite possibly turn out to become friends of mine πŸ™‚ Through the school year this year we’ll be doing Co-Op classes. I’ll be able to do theater again!!!! Oh, that feels so good to say ^_^ I’ve been out of theater way too long πŸ™
God is giving me lots of new opportunities. I couldn’t be happier ^_^ I’m getting the chance to be a teenager again ^_^
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If I had I choice… I’m not sure that I would rewind my life back to before we moved. Yes, I would rather have never moved and I miss Missouri so much, but there are starting to be some rewards from moving. I’ve grown in my relationship with God (Something that probably wouldn’t have happened so quickly if I hadn’t moved), I found my camp, another home that I never would have found otherwise. I’ve grown up so much. It’s crazy. I’m so different from that little girl I was a year ago.
So what I want to tell anyone who is struggling out there, people that are going through tough times, it will get better. It will. No matter how hopeless your situation looks, you are not alone. God is with you, and he can do something beautiful with your life. You just need to be patient enough to see that.
I didn’t really believe this not long ago. I had people tell me: “It will get better, don’t worry” I would nod my head and pretend like I heard them, but in my heart I could not believe it.
How could things get better, I thought. I don’t see anything changing. Nope, I’m going to be completely miserable for a loooong time.
That’s what I thought. I would pray and pray and ask God to help me, to tell me what to do. Then, all of a sudden, things did get better.
Life can’t be Buttercups and Rainbows all the time. Imagine what we would be like if that was the case πŸ˜› That’s a conversation that I had at camp this summer. Why does God let bad things happen to us? That question would take a whole new post to answer, but I think that Jesus answers this the best:
Β β€œI am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser.Β 2Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He takes away;Β  and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit.
John 15: 1,2
I hope this brought you some encouragement today πŸ™‚
Jesus loves you!!
~Esther

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Dancing and Other Things

Hmmmm… What should I talk about? I have so much going on and yet I don’t know what to write about… :-/

Okay, well let’s start on what has made my life a little less crazy… Co-Op ended. Which is very sad πŸ™ Because I’ll never have a Co-Op with all those people again πŸ™Β  On the last day there was a girl who kept hugging me and it was so bitter sweet… At times 5 years doesn’t seem very long, and others it seems like forever πŸ™

On a happier note; the play went good! πŸ˜€ A few mistakes, as always, but nothing big πŸ™‚ It was really a fun play. And acting like you are furious at someone is so much fun πŸ˜‰ I even found out after our first practice that I scared one of my friends… She said that she had never heard me yell before πŸ˜‰ Which I had never thought about before… Most people have probably never heard me yell or seen me angry… Until now πŸ˜‰

Annnd… I went to a ball!! XD I’ve been to a couple balls before, but this was the first time I had gone to this particular one. I’ve known lots of people who have gone for years, but this was my first chance to. And it was absolutely amazing!!!! Words cannot describe it. I think dancing (well, at least Pride and Prejudice type dancing) is just about my most favorite things to do πŸ˜€ There’s nothing like spinning in a twirly dress or swinging around the room. I don’t think that I stopped smiling the whole time I was dancing πŸ˜‰ I didn’t realize before how muchΒ I like dancing… Maybe that will be something I look into in MA.

Because it's Time for a New Post...--Blank PagesI found my dress at Goodwill (You never know what you’ll find there! πŸ˜€ ), and found a pattern online for my shrug πŸ™‚ And Mrs. R went and got L and I corsages! That thought had never occurred to me, but apparently it’s a family tradition πŸ™‚

Because it's Time for a New Post...--Blank PagesBefore the dance I went over to my… brother’s fiance’s sister’s house( πŸ˜‰ ), and just hung out and got ready together πŸ™‚ And she even did my hair!! Isn’t it amazing?? I would have never thought that my hair would curl πŸ™‚ It took about 2 and a half hours, though… πŸ˜‰

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*Sigh* Yup… Life is crazy πŸ˜› I have more that I could write, but I think that’s a good place to stop πŸ™‚ See ya!

~Esther

What I’m Thinking– Random Moments

This is an idea I’ve seen around, and I’ve always thought that it was neat πŸ™‚ The only problem is that it is never your current train of thought… You may sit down and write half of it, and then get called by your mother to do something, or only write half a post in a day, and when you come back your thoughts are completely different! But it’s still fun πŸ™‚ Let me know what you think!

What I am:

Thinking: About photography.

Eating: Nothing.

Wearing: Green M.A.R.C.H shirt, and camo jeans.

Excited About: My play next month! πŸ™‚

Looking: At photography inspiration.

Listening: To my sister asking my Dad about something πŸ˜‰

Writing: This post, and working on the outline for my latest NaNoWriMo story.

Reading: The Kingdom That Turned the World Upside Down By David Bercot

Making: Pizza soon πŸ™‚

Sewing: Just mendin’ a few things πŸ˜›

Acting: Jo from Little Woman πŸ™‚

Planning On Dressing Up As: Jo

Singing: The Star Wars Theme Song with words. This is pretty much one of the most awesome songs ever… XD

Talking: To no one…

Planning: On seeing peoples soon πŸ˜‰

Wondering: Why a friend hasn’t texted me back…

Watching: Road to Avonlea and StarGate πŸ˜€

Playing: With the idea of using bubbles and glitter.

Asking: Myself if I should start cutting up pizza toppings yet, or wait till Mom starts the dough.

Naming: My Grandma’s cat πŸ˜‰

Wanting: To go play with my camera…

Finishing: Up this post.

Signing: Love.

Feeling: A tad sick XP

So there we go! Whether you understood any of that I don’t know… But you get the idea, I suppose πŸ™‚ Now go out and enjoy this beautiful weather!

~Essie

(Okay… I admit it. I no longer mind being called Essie. I used to hate it, but the other day I realized that I didn’t mind it anymore…)