~Highlights From 2017~ 2018 is Almost Here!

2018 is almost here! It’s hard to believe that 2017 is about to come to a close. Reflecting back over the year… It was a good one 🙂 So much happened. It started off super rough. I was so done mentally, done with being lonely and feeling sorry for myself. The resolution I made for 2017 was to have a better year than 2016. But then it all turned around and ended up as a year that will be very special for a long time ^_^

Here’s some of the my highlights of 2017 🙂

  • My trip to Missouri. Even though it was really difficult (There was a lot I was dealing with.), it was good to go  spend time with some of my siblings and nieces and nephews. It all was very bittersweet.
  • Camp. Where I found healing 🙂 Everyone that I met there, everything I did… All the fun I had 🙂
  • Co-Op. I’m not sure that I could have survived another year without it ^_^ The people there especially. Everyone there accepted me as one of them without a moment’s hesitation. It didn’t take me long at all before it became a normal part of my life 🙂
  • One family that I and my family has gotten close to in the Co-Op 🙂 They’re the sweetest family. We’re really similar, but different at the same time. They’ve been such a blessing.
  • Theater. That’s one of the classes I’m taking at Co-Op. I wasn’t sure about it the first time I went, but it definitely went up from there 🙂 One of the first classes I volunteered to help write the script. I’m so glad I did ^_^ I had no idea I would enjoy it so much.
  • Thanksgiving. I’ve never really enjoyed Thanksgiving that much, but this year was different 🙂 I did a lot of the baking and helping with preparation,which I really enjoyed. And then we had the family mentioned above over for dinner. We ate good food, talked, played games afterward… It wasn’t anything fancy or spectacular; everything was very low key. It was one of, and quite possibly the best, Thanksgivings I’ve ever had 🙂
  • Going to see Star Wars: The Last Jedi. Aaaaaaaaahh!! I saw it about two weeks ago, so I’m still fan girling about it ^_^ My brother and I dressed up as jedi. We went with people from our church. It was so much fun XD

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Do Things Ever Really Get Better?

We’ve all heard people say it. You’re going through a hard time and all people can tell you is: “Just wait, things will get better!” But do we really believe them? Do things ever really get better?
Keep reading, maybe I can help 🙂
 June 2016 through June 2017.
That sentence pretty much sends a shudder through me.
Most people who know me know that the last year has been very hard for me. Some people more than others. There were times when I would just want to give up, but I kept praying that God would somehow make things better for me and help me understand what was going on, and help me get through.
He answered my prayers completely 🙂 It didn’t happen instantly. I suffered for a long time. Then I found a place that helped. A place that God knew I needed 🙂 Camp. It helped me refocus and find my freedom again. I found friends, and purpose in life again, I felt free again. I was no longer burdened down with all my emotions and sadness. I started not just living from day to day, but actually smiling when I woke up in the mornings, like I used to.
And after that the blessings kept continuing…. We found a Co-Op/homeschool group, which was exactly what we had been looking for for quite awhile. We’ve gotten together with them a few times, I’ve met some people that I think may quite possibly turn out to become friends of mine 🙂 Through the school year this year we’ll be doing Co-Op classes. I’ll be able to do theater again!!!! Oh, that feels so good to say ^_^ I’ve been out of theater way too long 🙁
God is giving me lots of new opportunities. I couldn’t be happier ^_^ I’m getting the chance to be a teenager again ^_^
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If I had I choice… I’m not sure that I would rewind my life back to before we moved. Yes, I would rather have never moved and I miss Missouri so much, but there are starting to be some rewards from moving. I’ve grown in my relationship with God (Something that probably wouldn’t have happened so quickly if I hadn’t moved), I found my camp, another home that I never would have found otherwise. I’ve grown up so much. It’s crazy. I’m so different from that little girl I was a year ago.
So what I want to tell anyone who is struggling out there, people that are going through tough times, it will get better. It will. No matter how hopeless your situation looks, you are not alone. God is with you, and he can do something beautiful with your life. You just need to be patient enough to see that.
I didn’t really believe this not long ago. I had people tell me: “It will get better, don’t worry” I would nod my head and pretend like I heard them, but in my heart I could not believe it.
How could things get better, I thought. I don’t see anything changing. Nope, I’m going to be completely miserable for a loooong time.
That’s what I thought. I would pray and pray and ask God to help me, to tell me what to do. Then, all of a sudden, things did get better.
Life can’t be Buttercups and Rainbows all the time. Imagine what we would be like if that was the case 😛 That’s a conversation that I had at camp this summer. Why does God let bad things happen to us? That question would take a whole new post to answer, but I think that Jesus answers this the best:
 “I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. 2Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He takes away;  and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit.
John 15: 1,2
I hope this brought you some encouragement today 🙂
Jesus loves you!!
~Esther

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My Birthday Thingy Dingy!

Hello peoples! Glorious weather we’ve been having lately! 😀

So Thursday was a big day… That morning the homeschool group had a nerf war, which was awesome 😀 We were split up into two teams, and each team had a flag. The goal of the game was to capture the other teams flag, and not get shot in the process 😉 If you were shot three times you were out. I was picked on the yellow team, which was mostly girls 😉 We were in a gym set up with tables and big cardboard boxes for cover.

The first battle started, and went for awhile. Neither of the teams seemed to be getting anywhere, except for a couple people getting wounded (Including my team’s leader). I figured it was time for someone to do something, and when I saw a good opening I sprinted across the floor to the red side, and grabbed the flag. And then I ran back, only getting shot once or twice. And that’s how our team won the first round!

The second battle pretty much the exact some thing happened 😉 Only I had someone covering for me this time.

The third… I think that I was wounded. I can’t remember for sure. But then a couple of the younger boys ran up and got the red flag 🙂

Fourth battle we switched forts. And I was behind one of the boxes with two other girls, H and S. And we were joking how we were going to kick the box down all awesome like, when B came up to us and told us to create a distraction so that another girl could go get the red flag. And we happily complied! We kicked the box down at the same time, and charged out. Of course, we all died right away, but we ‘died awesomely’ as we called it 😉 But, our heroic attempts were in vain, for the girl who was going to get the flag was held up by a red person, and couldn’t get it 🙁 And then all our older teammates died as well, and there was no one left on the field but younger persons. Needless to say, we lost that battle 🙁

I honestly don’t remember who won the rest of the battles… In the last couple we switched to “paintball style” which meant that there was no flags; you shot the other team until everyone was out.

I shouldn’t have to tell you that I had fun 😉 Such, such fun…

After the nerf war we went over to Co-Op. I had art class first 🙂 And after that sign language, and then theater. All three of them went very well 🙂 In art we touched up the drawings/paintings that we had started last week 🙂 In sign language we went through all the family relationships… Father, mother, brother, etc. 🙂 And we also practiced the song that we’re going to perform on the last day of Co-Op 🙂 In theater we did a couple theater games, and a couple skits.

After theater was over we left right away, after “kidnapping” a couple girls, to pick up two friends. And then we went home and did henna! 😀

You may not be familiar with henna… Basically it’s like temporary tattoos. Only it’s natural, and prettier 😉

Pictures! XD

Henna-- My Birthday Thingy Dingy My henna-- My Birthday Thingy Dingy

This is my design 🙂

S's henna--My Birthday Thingy Dingy

This S’s (the girl who died heroically with me 😉 ) design… Very pretty, wouldn’t you say! 😀 I love her flowers and music notes and cross 🙂

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Captain Jack Sparrow symbol It’s a horrible picture, but you can still see it 🙂

Aaaaaaaahh… It was a very good day 🙂 And about the only way to explain it, in the words of my dear friend, it was my birthday thingy dingy 😉 Thank you to all who made that day so special!!

Over and out,

~Esther