~Changes~

Changes

Changes. Really, really big changes. My family is moving. You don’t know how wrong it feels for me to be saying those words. That’s what everyone else says; not me. I’ve lived in this house my entire life. Never, ever did I think that we would move. I’ve planned out my whole life here. My hopes and dreams… All of it. But I have to admit that I’m a little excited… Massachusetts is beautiful, and there is SO much to do out there. The homeschooling laws are good, and hopefully we’ll be able to find a homeschool group. All the same, it doesn’t change the fact that I’m going to miss this place tremendously. My family and friends, all my haunts, my life here. And things that I was looking forward to, like being in Alice in Wonderland this fall (Yeah, this is a big one 😛 I’ve been looking forward to this for months, hoping that I would do good this play so I could maybe get a bigger part next time, and now I won’t be able to be in it. I won’t even be able to see it. And who knows if I’ll ever get the chance to be in a play after this? I’m not allowing myself to hope for that :'( ), paintballing with my brother, watching my nieces and nephews grow up, maybe even having AJ be in a play with me 😉 , and all those dreams that I won’t be able to participate in. And yes, we won’t be there forever, most likely we’ll be back in about five years, but by that time I could be married! And by then I’ll be too old for all my childish dreams XP

This change is going to be hard for me, but I do believe that God has a plan for me in all this.

Jeremiah 29:11 NKJV

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”

I’ve always kind of ignored this verse. It was the verse that everyone used for graduations, and didn’t apply to me. But now I see that it does. In hard times God truly does have a future planned for me. And I need to remember to go along with it 😉

I’m going to miss all of you soooooooo much!!!! :'( You all HAVE to come visit. You have absolutely no excuse not to 😉

But in all of this I have a consolation.

I will be able to be in Boston in the fall. *Wink wink*

😀 😀 😀

~Esther

P.S There’s something just a little ironic about us moving to MA. That’s where Jo March grew up O.o

P.P.S Also, prayers and hugs would be very much appreciated 🙂 Prayers for obvious reasons, and hugs because I needs them 😉 Normally when I’m going through a hard time I just want people to leave me alone, and go hide away till it’s all over. But this time it’s different. I want to talk to people about what’s going on, and get hugs XD

Staying Thankful

Staying Thankful- Blank Pages

I have to be honest, the weekend of Thanksgiving has always been hard for me to stay thankful. Every year on the Saturday after Thanksgiving our family has done Thanksgiving Dinner, with everyone on my Mom’s side of the family. And normally relatives start arriving a couple days before that. And, most of the time, my room is taken over, and just about the whole house is filled with laughing people. So thus I have no place to go to get my “alone time”. It may sound a bit strange, but this is very difficult for me. Being an introvert I can only go with socializing so long before I have to recharge. And when I have no where to do this, is when the emotions get in the way 😛 Last year I had at least one major breakdown, and several small ones 😛 So every year I have the same struggle. To keep smiling even though on the inside I feel like crying, to laugh every time a relative tells me how tall I’m getting, just being thankful on this week.

But this year it hasn’t been as hard for me.

I’ve prayed about it, and done my best to be as positive as I can be.

Ephesians 5:20

Giving thanks always… Not just when times are good, or when you’re in a good mood, always. That’s not an option, it’s a command. Giving thanks always… Saying this verse to yourself whenever you’re having a hard time, or, in my case, saying it to yourself when you’re getting stressed about having a houseful of relatives 😉

These are my thoughts this Thanksgiving, how about you? What are you thinking of this beautiful Thanksgiving day? What Thanksgiving traditions do you have?

Have a thankful day!

~Esther