Thoughts About 2016 and Moving-Part 1

So, in short, 2016 was probably the least enjoyable year of my life. Maybe even the worst. That doesn’t mean good things didn’t happen in 2016, some very good things did. Elegant Evening, my brother’s wedding, Co-Op. The year started out great, but then got steadily worse…

Things kind of started in March when Mom talked to me about a couple job applications that Dad had put it, which didn’t sound like he would get. In which case we would probably move to the town where our church was. Which would have been great! I would be super close to my best friend, the church, and closer to a lot of things. It would have been a little different, but not that much.

And then both of Dad’s job applications started getting more promising… He had a couple of phone interviews, and it was going farther than any other application that he had made before. And then it became more apparent that we would be moving. Not just a half an hour away, more like 14 or 20 hoursΒ  away.

I think March 30th or 31st was the day that I knew this thing was going to happen. And it still didn’t seem real. Moving? Really? Our family doesn’t do that. It’s just a joke, right?Β But no, it wasn’t. I remember going to my soon to be sister-in-law’s wedding shower that her church had put on for her and feeling so numb and ready to cry knowing what was coming. And not being able to tell anyone… That was very hard. One Sunday at church I want up to my best friend and hugged her and started crying. Of course she asked me what was wrong, but I wasn’t allowed to tell anyone… Mom and Dad hadn’t even told all my siblings yet so of course I couldn’t talk about it.

And then one day in early April Dad called from work to ask us if we could take a week long vacation to Massachusetts in a couple of hours. They wanted him to come for an interview in person. So we packed up, and left two hours later. It took maybe 6 days to get there and back. And Dad was really impressed with the place there, everyone thought that the area was really pretty. And it got even more complicated… Dad got an offer from the place in Louisiana, as well as an unofficial one from Massachusetts. So Mom and Dad asked all of us where we would rather live. It was a hard choice… But I couldn’t shake off the feeling that Massachusetts was where God wanted us to be. And that’s where Mom and Dad decided to go.

I don’t remember how soon we told everybody… We talked to all our siblings on the way back to Missouri, and I think we told the people at our church soon after that. It was so hard telling friends… I cried, and choked up and couldn’t talk and felt guilty that I hadn’t told them before.

And then cleaning. So much cleaning. Which really wasn’t much fun, but it had to be done if we were to sell our house. So with cleaning, getting ready for the wedding, and Co-Op, we were quite busy for awhile. And then Co-Op ended, Luke got married… But cleaning didn’t end until we left. I had so many plans of saying goodbye… To my woods, the house, my friends… Not many of them got done. I don’t know why, I just couldn’t say goodbye. And since we hadn’t sold the house I knew we would be back.

The night before we left Luke and Hannah came over, and we all went to buy fireworks with them. We piled into their little red car after supper and drove 20 minutes to get fireworks just like we had done every year for as long as I can remember. The drive back I remember playing music full blast, and the fireflies flying past us like shooting stars in the night. I can’t remember if I cried or not.

So we shot fireworks off, and then talked, and I hoped that that night would never end… But eventually they had to leave. It was not easy for me to say goodbye. I hugged Luke and didn’t want to let go… And then they left. I haven’t seen them since then.

After they left we all got ready for bed. The house was completely empty, except for a recliner, and a couple other things. Everyone except me was sleeping upstairs; I had the basement all to myself. I went down, started getting ready for bed, then collapsed on the recliner cryingΒ  like I never had before. I cried so hard that night. Up to then I had wanted to cry, but it would never come out. It all did then.

~to be continued~

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Thoughts About Life//Hiking Stories

Note: most of this post was written in October, and I never got around to actually finishing it and posting it. So all my thoughts and muses may be a little outdated πŸ˜‰ Hopefully I’ll be able to write a post bringing you all up to date soon πŸ™‚

Yup, it’s been awhile, huh? You’ll just have to get used to my absences, because they are going to happen from time to time!

Anyhow, back to life. I haven’t even begun to understand it. Nor do I believe that I ever will XP

I’m kind of a mess emotionally now. I’ll be good one moment, going about my day, and then something will happen to make me not so good the next πŸ˜› I’m a lot better than I was, but still. These past 6 months or so have been so hard. Harder than I ever remember.

So my life right now is pretty boring… Mostly school. But we did go on a ten mile hike the other day! πŸ™‚ Up an absolutely gorgeous mountain.

The Mountain That We Climbed πŸ˜‰

The hike up--Blank Pages

Leaves of gold--Blank Pages

Sister at the bridge--Blank Pages


At the top of the mountain!

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The fire tower at the top, once we climbed it we were over 4000 ft! πŸ˜€

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It was truly a breathtaking view πŸ™‚

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We couldn’t have asked for more perfect weather that day! A crystal clear day, not too hot or cold, just right πŸ™‚



I took this picture on our way to the pond. Noah and I basically climbed down the mountain by ourselves, Dad and Gabe are crazy fast hikers, so it never took them long to get ahead of Noah and me πŸ˜‰ So Noah and I had fun, making a competition out of who fell down the most, me spontaneously singing lines from Carrying the Banner (Specifically: “Walk until we faaaaallll!” Yep, I’m crazy ^_^), me telling myself and Noah that we didn’t have time to goof off, and talking about random crazy things πŸ˜‰ We had fun πŸ™‚

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The “pond” and the bottom of the mountain. They called it a pond, but we all agreed that it really should be a lake πŸ˜‰

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My little sister took this, she’s got a pretty good eye, don’t you think? πŸ™‚

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This is the closest thing that we got to a family picture πŸ™‚

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Okay, so there’s a story behind this picture… A very observant person would notice that I’m not wearing shoes in this picture, and I don’t look that happy, and that I’m holding my jacket weirdly. The reason behind all this: on the 4 mile hike back my feet started hurting, and then really hurting, so much so that it was really difficult to walk. I had cheap shoes on, not the greatest decision I’ve ever made πŸ˜› Note to self: buy good hiking shoes the next time you go on a ten mile hike. Anyway, I could walk, but not very fast at all, and I had to stop every 10-15 minutes or so. And we’re in the middle of nowhere, there’s nothing to do but keep walking the miles to the road. And I do, although every step is painful. (The reason I’m clutching my jacket sleeve in the above picture) The pathway seemed endless, but at last, the road finally appeared. I was ever so happy to see that black asphalt πŸ™‚ So yes! I survived πŸ™‚ And don’t any of you dare feel sorry for me, I won some bragging rights that day πŸ˜‰ I walked 3 plus miles in the woods without shoes, for one πŸ˜‰

See ya latah!







New House, School, Church, Etc Etc!

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We moved into our new house on the 16th! πŸ˜€ Gosh. No one should ever have to spend their life in a hotel. It’s just not right πŸ˜›

We have a lot of boxes unpacked, all the bedrooms are pretty much done, bathroom, living room, dining room, and the kitchen. The basement is still a mess πŸ˜› It will be so nice to have everything unpacked.

Okay, I’ve been talking about this lately-Do you think rats are cute? Not the wild grey rats, the pet kind πŸ™‚ And mice. I think that they are both adorable, but no else seems to :-/ Tell me your thoughts on this topic πŸ™‚

I’ve realized being here how blessed I was with our church in Missouri. Churches here aren’t quite the same, not as strong, or as big. All the ones we’ve visited have not used scripture as much as they could have. I’m really going to have to rely more on my own studies now. Not that I didn’t do that before, but I’ll have to do that even more now.

School starts up again soon, aand I’m not feeling as excited as I have in the past. I seem to get less excited about school every year πŸ˜› Mostly because of math. *shudders* Someday I shall be done with the dreaded subject… Oh do I long for that day. Sometimes when I finish my math lesson for the day I’ll slam the book shut and say “I have vanquished you, foul beast!” Or something to that effect πŸ˜‰

Well, I guess that I’ll sign off now πŸ™‚

See ya later! πŸ™‚






We’ve got a House!!!!!!!

Sooo… How are you all?? I’ve been slacking not posting, I know πŸ˜›

Most exciting news… We’ve found a house!!!!!Β  After a month of searching we’ve found one πŸ™‚ Thank God ^_^ Boy, am I ready to get out of this hotel πŸ˜› It’s really not bad staying in a hotel, but one month in a hotel is too long…. Yep ^_^ We’ll move in about two weeks.

front2The front of the house… The middle section is ours πŸ™‚ Don’t you just love our half a bench?? πŸ˜‰

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The back deck-Blank PagesView from the back deck. It’s not a huge back yard, but bigger than I thought it would be πŸ™‚ There’s a little room to play. Noah was already planning where he would build a snow fort πŸ˜‰

Bedroom--Blank PagesMom and Dad’s room πŸ™‚

Downstairs--Blank PagesDownstairs. It’s pretty cool πŸ™‚ Noah and I thought that the back room was pretty cool… Which I unfortunately don’t have a picture of πŸ™ Down here is where we’ll have the sewing room, craft room etc. Where I’m hoping to do my big-ish project. More about that to come πŸ™‚ (If I manage to pull it off…)

Girls' room--Blank PagesMy room, and Bekah’s πŸ™‚

So that’s it! The whole shabang πŸ˜‰ Well, maybe not quite. But close enough πŸ™‚ I’m pretty happy about it all ^_^

Other news… I miss milk. And salsa. And pizza. REAL milk, salsa, and pizza… *Sigh*

You might be surprised, but I have not actually been to Boston yet. It’s something that I’ve been wantingΒ  to do, but it hasn’t happened yet. I’m sure that it will happen eventually. The talk is of maybe going to Legoland, which is in Boston, for Gabe’s birthday, so maybe I’ll get there then πŸ™‚

We’ve been visiting several churches, and found one that I think we might go to πŸ™‚ I’ll just wait and see what happens, though! It’s interesting to see how God works things out πŸ™‚

See ya later! πŸ™‚